Have you ever felt like things are shaking all around you? You try to hold it together, but to no avail things continue to move? It’s like your life is on a fault line. If you’ve been there, or are there now, let me reassure you – you are not alone.
This week’s verse in the challenge awaked the eyes of my mind, and heart. All eight of my eyes were opened. No, that is not a typo. And, no I am not some alien with eight eyes. Although some mornings before I’ve had my coffee I may look like one. I say eight because I wear glasses to read. You may have heard the saying “Let me put my eyes on.” Therefore, eight eyes. So for this week’s re-cap, let’s put our eyes on, all eight, or six, if you don’t wear glasses.
First, did you notice how the beginning of the verse started? Some of your translations may start with, “See,” (NLT); “I am concerned for you” (NIV); “For, behold” (NASB, ESV, and KJV). This year I am studying out of the Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB) and I love how it starts. It follow’s the NASB, ESV, and KJV with the word translated for a little easier read that’s not so wooden. It says, “Look!” and puts an exclamation point after it. “Look!”
Have you ever tried to make a point? If so, you probably spoke with an exclamation point, or two. And, I am not referring to arguing, but something you are passionate about. Something you want someone to understand.
The rest of the verse says “I am on your side, I will turn toward you, and you will be tilled and sown.” Ez. 36:9 HCSB
This week proved to be a bit different for me. At the beginning I was looking with my physical eyes. I was looking for evidence that God was with me. No, I did not buy a lottery ticket. Or think some wind fall of money would drop in on me. God has taught me over these last few years of being unemployed that my worth, and his provision is not wrapped up in a job and money. Before you send me nasty emails. I am not saying those things are bad, they are good, and we need jobs, and income to live and pay bills. I am saying those things do not comprise the totality of who God is, and how he cares for us.
With my four eyes I began to look. Each day I would ask God to show me that He is on my side. That He is turned toward me. With my four eyes I saw:
- At work (it is a seasonal job, with the potential to be hired on full time) they have begun to ween me out by transferring work.
A couple of times I had to clean my glasses because I thought – this is how you are for me? Another job – gone. With no potential in sight?! Question mark, exclamation point. Yes, I will admit at times I use an exclamation point with God. When I do I’m pretty sure, depending on my tone, like any loving parent, He sits back and lets me talk before telling me – just trust Me.
This week with the job moving closer to the end, my relationship with my boyfriend landed on a fault line, and began to shake. It ended up on the fault line of
- “It’s your fault, not my fault.”
And back and forth we went. Oh yea, now you know what I am talking about. It does not matter if you are married, single, old, or young. I think if a person is breathing at one point in their life about someone else those words have been uttered. And it goes all the way back to Adam and Eve in the garden. (Gen. 3: 1-13) We call it the blame game.
Being true to my nature I stood my ground, planted my feet, and was not changing my position. My point was made. Probably with two exclamation points. Have you been there before? You know what I am talking about. I see some of you shaking your head in agreement. You know.
Again I say, I’m looking and this is how You are on my side?
My four eyes wanted to see the outward reality of God being for me. But this week, God said “we are going to waken the other four eyes. The eyes of your heart, and mind. Friends, that is a whole other experience!
The next day – God began to show me that He is on my side. No. He wasn’t in agreement with my position. It was the opposite. He spoke to my heart first through a message I was listening to by Joyce Meyer, 7 Ways to Happiness. Apparently I was looking for happiness. In her message she said “if you are in a relationship with someone that’s difficult it may very well be that you are difficult.” Right then my hearts eyes opened. Sometimes God will use others to get his point across.
I jotted down some notes, and as I wrote the eyes of my mind opened. I was being selfish. I know him, and what I was saying he wouldn’t do on purpose. Ouch! I said, “but my feelings are hurt,” and I wanted to continue to stand my ground. I wanted God to be on my side, on my terms. Have you ever been there?
But God was having none of that. This week’s verse came to the front like a tidal wave – “Look! I am on your side.” I was looking and didn’t like what I was seeing – about myself. I wanted it to be about him. But God whispered to my spirit as I sat, “don’t worry about him. I am dealing with you and your part.”
“No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening- it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.” Heb. 12:11 NLT
God does that. When we think:
- It’s not me.
- It’s not my fault.
- I know best.
- My way is the right way.
- I deserve ______
No need to go on. I think you have the picture. With all eight eyes fully engaged I had to swallow my pride, and make the first move. God was telling me – you will be the one to apologize.
“Reject foolish and ignorant disputes, knowing that they breed quarrels.” 2 Ti. 2:23 HCSB
I had to be the one to say “I’m sorry. I was being selfish.” As my relationship sat on the fault line shaking, God was at work. And the lesson was for me, not for him.
“The Lords slave must not quarrel, but must be gentle to everyone, able to teach, and patient instructing his opponents with gentleness.” 2 Ti. 2:24-25a. HCSB
It hurt for a moment because our flesh wants its own way, but when God opens your inner eyes you know – He is for you!
My man, being the man he is, accepted my apology. And, as for that fault line, it was repaired by God. Look! God is on your side. I am forever grateful. As for my job, with God for me I know all will be well.
Have you landed on a fault line? Are things shaking? It doesn’t have to be with a relationship. It can be at work, finances, ect., if so, like me, you may be seeing things with your physical eyes. Allow God to open the eyes of your heart and mind. It may be painful for a moment, but after there is peace. Look! And see, He is for you.
What did you see this week?
©Gentle Whisper Ministries 2016
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